I really wasn't with it today. Weird stuff happens to me when I take Sudafed with major shots of caffiene. It wasn't really Sudafed, something like Benadryl Cold, but it has the Sudafed (psuedophedrine or something like that) drug in it.

The last time I had this potent little combo was at a cardboard city thingy months ago, where you spend the night in a cardboard structure with the intent of simulating what its like to be homeless. Whew, that was something else, I was spunky, talking, smiling and having a good time. The little part that was left conscious in me could hardly believe what I was doing half the time, and I hardly recognized myself. It was really weird, having complete conversations with people I hardly knew, yeah, I shocked me too.

Yeah, and I made a total fool of myself. Moving on.

Today, had my self-discovered chemical cocktail, and led to the common talking-to-complete-strangers side effect, but it wasn't real bad today. What I had instead was a complete lack of feeling, emotion, any arbitrary thing like that. I wasn't happy, wasn't sad, had no mood swings. Nothing. Most interesting. I would laugh at the weirdness of the feeling of the lack of feeling, but that would be something like emotion.

Spending a day as a breathing zombie was interesting. I don't remember a whole lot, I showed up at class, I think, might have even learned something. A total day of my life went by without much at all really. This was perhaps the most empty day I've had in a long time. At least the last time I was like this, I had memories I could be embarassed about. This time, I did nothing.

So, yeah, today was better.